I think it’s time I write about freaking parasites! Energetic parasites to be specific and the importance of stillness (remaining present). 

“Just Listen” is literally an entry in my journal. It was one of the first times I internally heard a very stern and firm voice. I have been receiving messages by then but not in this firm tone. Looking back at it now, it reminds me of a teacher trying to get the attention of the kid who won’t listen. And no, I was not listening by choice, my thoughts were going a mile a minute, but best believe that firm tone helped me!

At that point, I was already aware of energies and had overcome that horrible attachment I had that triggered my awakening with deity work. Sure enough, just so the lesson can stick, I didn't see it then but I saw it afterwards when I was going through my notes. Prior to this parasite, I saw a train being derailed, followed by other messages the following days. Of course at that time, I didn't think much of it, I just wrote it down along with the other messages (which I will discuss more about this another time). Sure enough, about two weeks later, I began feeling this dense dense energy around my forehead at work. Horrible headache. All day, I was thinking about how I am going to meditate to cleanse myself when I get home. Once I got home, I went to my usual spot to try to meditate. It usually takes me a few minutes to center myself so I can relax but this one went completely the opposite way. Instead of calming my mind to remove any thoughts, I began to freak out and I mean freaking out! I started thinking about how lonely I was when I was a little girl, how nothing has changed and I am the same lonely little girl, negative thought after negative thought to the point that I could feel my heart rate rising. I was panicking because I knew this wasn’t me and yet I couldn’t stop my own thoughts. No matter how many techniques I used to get back into a meditative state, it only made me hyperventilate as I couldn’t control the thoughts and noise from rattling in my head. 

Then I heard it. Loud and firm. “JUST LISTEN” and it broke through. It was then when I realized how loud the birds were cawing/chirping and I started to listen. I listened to the birds, the wind, the highway, the water fountain, the rustling of tree leaves. I listened until I didn't realize I was in a meditative state. After a good few moments, I realized how I had reached that meditative state because I suddenly heard “Nasty Creature”

I knew I wasn’t alone, I was receiving help. 

At first I was like, Me? Lol But no, it was that freaking parasite!

Now I am not going to lie, that has not been my last one, but it sure has been the last time I truly panicked. I used to think I was doing something wrong. Why do I keep attracting them? Now I see it as the flu/cold, no matter how hard you try, you will contract it at least once a year. There will be times you can let it pass by riding it out (practicing stillness in this sense) and there are times you are going to need something heavier like medicine (ie. banishing/cleansing). 

The takeaway for these parasites is to really listen to yourself. Understanding your body, soul, and mind will allow yourself to know when something else has entered your space. External protection is of course a boost but learning to know yourself will be your biggest weapon. For those practicing spirit/deity work/connections, discernment strengthens when you know yourself. When you sense/hear/see something, you begin to distinguish, is it coming from you, or something else? If it's something else, how does it make you feel, good, bad, uneasy and go from there. I remember once, I was dealing with this pain in one of my legs and back and it was literally waking me up at night. I remember laying in bed trying to fall back asleep and telling myself to accept the pain then I heard softly, “Be careful” Afterwards I kept hearing the phrase repeating, “I have no negative shadows in my home” and I started repeating it like a mantra as I began moving my hands away from my body. It is the little connections like these that have been guiding me along my path.

I know it is easier said than done because at the end of the day, time is what will help you, especially if you do not have anyone in your family or friends that can relate or discuss these things. There are times you will just have an inner knowing or guidance and there will be times that you learn from lessons, ‘trials and tribulations’ as I once received from an automatic writing time. There are things that I wrote down a year ago that are barely making sense to me, most still don’t make sense but I have experienced over and over how only time, as events unfolded, what I wrote down back will be connected to a certain meaning now. I am in the process now to start another journal with signs/synchronicities and my personal meaning based on past spiritual experiences. This is to build stronger connections between myself, different deities and spirits. If you are like me that forgets things easily, having journals and going back to them has been very helpful. I try to keep separate ones for different things so it is easier to locate information. 

I hope this finds the right people that need a little push in their path

🌹10.11.26🌹