🌹 Let them call it ruin …….You will call it rebirth 🌹
Where Darkness Became Illumination
Healing isn’t about performance for the sake of others. It is about trying to feel whole, not perfect.
This is for the ones trying to hold it together, but bleeding silently inside.
For the cycle breakers.
For the silent ones.
For the overthinkers.
For the people pleasers.
For the ones that fear questioning beyond how the ‘family picture’ should look like.
For the ones that feel it in their heart that there is more out there than the beliefs you were born into.
I am not here because I am healed. I am here because I am still healing. I didn’t feel ready but I have been guided that this too will be part of my healing, for me and hopefully for others as well.
Raw. Imperfect. Still Learning.
Awakened yet still Awakening
Falleth…
Sometimes the fall is the initiation…
So you can rise with awareness…
I always thought I wasn’t capable of being an artist because I cannot draw a straight line to save my life!I may not be able to draw what is on my mind and in my dreams but I love trying to capture the little things that I find beautiful at the moment. All of the photos on my webpage have been taken by me. No, they are not professional, they are not perfect, and some have been edited to hide certain landscapes near my home but the sky has always been my natural art. When I learned to pause to be present, I realized that looking at every detail on a rose pedal brought me stability and peace. It was a way for me to ground myself. Some of these photos have been taken well before I officially awakened yet I can see it through my photos, I’ve been on my path for far longer than I imagined. There is a personal story to each photo and putting these together here has allowed me to see how far I’ve come in this journey.
Living Alchemy
I am slowly but surely learning how to shape this website how I pictured it as the pieces are falling into places for my other projects. One thing I continue to learn is not to rush or force things. As mentioned before, I am still learning which means in the past couple of months I have been thrown lesson after lesson. I can get tired! I would forever be grateful for the guidance and initiation but that does not make it any easier.
I wanted to make a section dedicated to alchemy and transmutation. In this section I want to go more in depth about lessons, healing insights that have helped me break cycles of pain, manipulation, projection, dependency, and led me to a more sovereign self. From wounds to wisdom, I hope I can relay some insight for those needing to reclaim their voice, self-trust, and power.
Dreamwork and Connections
I am going to get a slight bit more esoteric with this section. I still do not know exactly in what direction I am taking it but I do want to incorporate what I have experienced in my life, liminal space and dreams. I may eventually make this section the foundational home for my other projects that I have been working on.
Dreamwork has become very important to me, not just esoterically. I used to always remember snip its of three specific dreams that gave me deja vu of certain places I’ve visited. Even then I never really gave it that much attention until recently. Dreamwork has been one of the most beautiful experiences in my journey. I took more value from dreams when I saw my spouse experience sleep paralysis. When I couldn't wait to go to sleep, he was afraid. I soon realized how sleep is made up of about a third of our 24 hr day. When we read books, we feel like we are transported into another world. Dreams have also taken me to so many places that have felt so real. There are dreams where I can still feel the water, the rain, the exhilaration, the joy. Dreams have taken me to places that feel as real as the ones I’ve physically seen. Places I visited in real life have the same fading memory feeling as the places I saw in past years. If you are someone who cannot remember your dreams, or unfortunately do not have pleasant ones, I hope I can provide some kind of guidance for positive dreamwork.